Our dad had to have open-heart surgery a little over a week ago. I was scared to death. There were scads of details and dangers to think about. Endless phone calls from friends, to doctors, conversations, miles to drive, …much to worry about. But, about two weeks before, God had begun preparing my heart to trust Him. I realized that I was great at talking about trusting, but didn’t actually do the trusting part.
Proverbs. 3:5-6 is one of the first verses we taught our kids. It’s even quoted by 3-year-old Alec (Laurie’s son) in one of the songs on our CD. So, trusting God has always been important in my life. At least I thought so. “Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways acknowledge Him, and He will make your paths straight.” Knowing something and actually living it are two totally different things. More than a “truster” I’ve been a worrier. I’ve worried about schooling, parenting, money, what we eat, jobs, where we live, money, cleaning my house, someone getting sick, our nation, money, what I’m not getting done, what I should’ve done, and what I can’t do, and did I mention money?
When I realized I worry more than I trust, I began noticing all the areas that I could actually get rid of the worry and trust Him instead. What a relief. So, when we learned about dad’s surprise surgery, if I started to worry, I was able to replace the thought with, “Lord, I know I can trust You to show us.” Then I trusted Him and He led us through the whole ordeal in a way only He could do. The details that He worked out could fill a sheet of paper front and back. Many of them were things I think I would have missed if I hadn’t been relying on Him for everything.
It made me think about all I’ve missed because I have been so busy trying to figure things out on my own? Maybe you’re there today worrying about a kid struggling in school, illness in yourself or your family, financial chaos. What are your worries? Would you join me as I’m learning to trust Him for everything, not just the big things? I pray you’ll trust the Lord with All your heart, too. Lean on Him, not what you can see. Acknowledge that you need Him and trust Him every time something comes up that hits your worry button. Tell Him you trust Him to show you…and then watch while you wait for His direction.
“…The Lord is near. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. And the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus.” Philippians 4:5-7
Trusting Him Today…Sharon